Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Why is it so hard?

Well, it is about 6:30 a.m. and I haven't been to sleep yet! I got off work last night at almost 11 p.m. and I just couldn't get myself to sleep. I am exhausted and worried and just down-right tired!

I have many questions that seemed to go unanswered. Who do I ask these questions too because so far no one could help. Why is it I spent over four years in the military, have a whole lot of college semester hours (not quarter hours... I'm talkin semester hours), and have management experience and yet I am making $6.79 per hour as a "Sandwich Artist"? I have tried and tried to get a job at the prison and this last time they said that I will be starting soon but I still haven't heard when... hurry up and wait just like the military I guess. I worked at the State Hospital for an overlap position for about two months (that is how long the position was supposed to last) and even with that new knowledge, I still can't get a job at the hospital or anything good. Why am I doomed to make just pitiful wages? You can't survive on those wages! Not when you have a family and rent and gas and food! There is no frickin way! I just don't understand it at all. Maybe one day I will get it... but until then, I will just be annoyed at life I guess!